You couldn't pay me to go back to middle school... I was
awkward and weird looking, insecure and I wore the same jacket like every day....
and don't even get me started on the hair, braces and glasses... Needless to
say I am happy those days are over haha but there is one thing that happened in
middle school that would forever change and bless my life, I met my life long
best friend.
It was 8th grade and I was having the worst time of my life
with some not very nice girls and I went home crying almost every day. I
started sitting at a new table for lunch with Simone, Rachel and Brandi Clarke.
We became fast friends. They took me in, built me up and gave me confidence and
great times. The years came and 4 became 3 and by sophomore year we were down
to just 2, Brandi Clarke and I.
Other than my family I would have to say that Brandi Clarke
has had the most impact on my life. She has been by my side through EVERYTHING.
When a huge secret and devastating family crisis came up in high school it was
her that I called at 2 in the morning and even though I'm sure she couldn't
make out a word I was saying through all the tears she talked to me, and calmed
me down. Everyone needs a 2 am friend. She was there every time my biological
father was awful to me, she was there when people were rude to me but more
importantly she was there for all the good times.
Brandi was there when I got my first kiss; fell in love for
the first time and when I had my first, second, third, fourth, fifth and sixth heartbreak
and so on. She was there for every dumb decision and mistake. Every time I went
back to the wrong guy or let my heart lead when my mind should have. She never
once judged me or thought I was crazy or irrational, she always understood and
talked me through all my feelings, getting me back on the positive, right path.
She was ALWAYS right haha and I never listened to her, I still don’t (You'd
think I’d learn my lesson....) yet she was always there to comfort me and get
upset and protective. She believes in me and gives me confidence.
We are very different, we believe different things and do
different things but she has never been anything but supportive and protective
of my morals and values. We have only fought once.... over John Diggs (kill me)
haha but even that only lasted a day..... Sure she annoys me sometimes and I
make fun of how long it takes her to get ready but there is not a better person
in the world.
She is beautiful. Inside and out. She has a heart of gold;
she is nice to everyone.... even when they don't deserve it. She is funny, she
is outspoken, she is the best kind of weird there is. She is not afraid to be
herself. She is so strong, hardworking and silly. I hope to be more like her someday.
She is trusting and full of love and compassion. Understanding with just the
perfect amount of tough love. She deserves everything good in life, the very
best. I don't think I could ever fully explain how much I love her and how much
I think she deserves. She should be treasured and adored. I don't think she
understands how special she is and that people like her come around once in a
life time..... If I could I would throw a parade in her honor every day. I
would hire people to complement her on all she does idk haha but if I could
find some way to show her how wonderful she is I would. She is the very best
things about life.
As we went off to college we were scared where our
friendship would end up... but that was a silly fear to have with a friendship
like ours. No matter how much time we spend apart or don't talk nothing
changes. We only grow closer and she only means more to me. Every shattered
heart, body image issue, family drama, school or life worry she has been
there.... right by my side no matter what. She can't take the pain away but
with a friend like her and with the support she gives she makes the pain
lessen. She puts a smile on my face, gratitude in my heart and positives in my
head. She is beautiful.
Even if it's just a sad post on Facebook I get a call or
text asking how I am, she would drop anything and everything to be there for
me, and I would do the same for her.... nothing beats the feeling of having
someone you can depend on no matter what.
She is the best friend a girl could ask for. Yeah I have
made more amazing best friends but there will never be another Brandi Clarke.
She is the one that has gotten me through my darkest days and she is the one
with whom I have shared my happiest moments. But more than always being there
for me she has taught me what I deserve.
Boys should be warned now, she has set an impossibly high
standard, and while I know that no boy will ever be Brandi Clarke she has
taught me to never settle. That I am amazing and just like her I deserve the
best out of life. I am spoiled by her love and attention, her understanding and
support. I will never be able to express or thank her for all she is to me but
I am so lucky to have her, and so lucky to have more and more mistakes to face and
happy times to enjoy with her by my side. There are so many adventures to come.
Someday her and I will find ourselves in our spot overlooking
all of Olympia. Our kids and husbands at home and we will look back, remember
and laugh at all of the crazy, stupid, magical, awful, silly, hurtful, lovely
and tough things that got us to that point. We will laugh at all of the b.s.
and dumb people and all of the hard things that got us down because no matter
what happens the world is a beautiful place when you have a best friend like
Brandi Clarke <3
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