Someday I will look back and be thankful for everything that got me to that point.

So.... a lot has happened and I'm not really ready to talk about it yet because I really don't even understand it. I don't really know what to think and I could drive myself crazy trying to figure it out. I could go through all of the what ifs and kill myself trying to read into everything, but that wont benefit anyone or fix anything. I need this time to work on myself and better understand myself. I need to asses what I want out of a relationship, what I need, and what I deserve. I am "taking it slow". When all else fails stand by what you know. I am starting at square one with just me, myself, and I.  

My name is Breanna Rushton. I am loud, I am eccentric. I drive fast, I love life and my emotions are always easily displayed on my face. I feel and do everything in extremes. I love with my whole heart. I jump without looking, I trust without fear, I look at the good not the bad in others and I am passionate. I can get obsessive, and sometimes I care too much about what other people think. I get confused because sometimes even I don't know what I'm thinking or feeling, I am emotional and I feel a billion different things at once. I don't always appreciate what I have. I fake it till I make it. I've hurt people and I've been hurt. I get ahead of myself, I am stubborn, I get insecure, I don't always have the right things to say, and I defiantly don't always do the right thing. I am selfish. I am down right awful at asking for help, I am afraid of rejection. I am my most comfortable in shorts and a t-shirt. I try to plan for everything, and there are things out there that scare me. I can be needy, I'm not always the best at being alone, I make mistakes, I get worked up and overwhelmed, I get irrational.
 I'm a lot to handle, I take things out on others and I stress.... A lot. I don't always handle things in the best, or the most healthy way. Sometimes I expect too much and get crushed by disappointment. I am strong. I am blessed with amazing friends and family that have given me unforgettable memories. Once I care about someone they are a part of me forever. I am determined, I fight for what and who I love, I am dramatic, and all I really want is to be loved. I am cheesy, funny, loving, and loyal, I laugh during the good times as well as the awkward. I am not good at being patient and I daydream. Some how I am always in a hurry. The way to my heart is by silly laughter. I am bubbly, I have faith, I am open, I refuse to let life or hurt ruin me and even though I fall a lot I will always get back up. I am young, I say things I don't mean and I do things I wish I could take back. I have nothing figured out and everything to learn. I'm excited for what life has in store for me, so take me as I am.

Quotes haha (I'm cheesy like that (;)

"Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. You have to know that you’re a good person and a good friend. What’s meant to be will end up good and what’s not – won’t. Love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can’t be the only one fighting. At times, people need to fight for you. If they don’t, you just have to move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. Always fight, until you can’t anymore, and then be fought for."

"Live life fully while you’re here. Experience everything. Take care of yourself and your friends. Have fun, be crazy, be weird. Go out and screw up! You’re going to anyway, so you might as well enjoy the process. Take the opportunity to learn from your mistakes: find the cause of your problem and eliminate it. Don’t try to be perfect; just be an excellent example of being human."

"It is what it is, and it was what it was. Don’t fret the could-haves because if it should-have, it would-have."

"In life we do things, some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. But they all make us who we are and in the end, shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them, we wouldn’t be the person we are. So just live, make mistakes, have wonderful memories, but never second guess who you are, where you have been, and most importantly where it is you are going."

"I choose…to live by choice, not by chance. To make changes, not excuses. To be motivated, not manipulated. To be useful, not used. To excel, not compete. I choose self-esteem, not self pity. I choose to listen to my inner voice. Not the random opinion of others."

"It's only when you've lost everything that you're free to do anything" 

"To be alive is to totally and openly participate in the simplicity and elegance of here and now."

"I have found that if you love life, life will love you back."

"What comes easy, won’t always last. And what will last, won’t always come easy."

"Sometimes, life doesn’t want to give you something that you want. It’s not because you don’t deserve it, but because you deserve more."

“Sometimes we expect more from others because we would be willing to do that much for them.”

“Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible.”

“At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don’t keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That’s how we’re made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them.”

"I want you to accept that life is not perfect, that people are not perfect, and that there are all sorts of things in the world that disappoint us."

“The hardest part about growing up is letting go of what you were used to, and moving on with something you’re not.”

“When I grow up I want to know that I did all the wrong things, for all the right reasons.”

“If someone wants to be a part of your life, they’ll make an effort to be in it. Don’t bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn’t make an effort to stay.”